I don’t have a dictionary definition of pain
or HURT
or discomfort
or torture
but I have experienced them.
It has happened to me each time I choose to love, to give, to even like…
sometimes I wonder how heaven would feel like?
no pain, no crying, no confusion, just peace, joy and MUSIC.
Now here I am, writing because someone hurt me, someone who does not and should not have the power to hurt me.
this is only because I let them, foolish me right?
always trying to love and ending up in HURT. the irony!
There are moments I have experienced love, not even thinking that I could ever be hurt.
love, amazing love, unconditional love, love from the SAVIOR,
this is the one person I owe my heart,
my very being,
my every thought, my all,
the only person I have turned my back on, the only person i should not turn my back on.
I probably don’t fully know how he feels but I think I have a slight idea because my heart feels worn out even from the few times I have experienced HURT
NOW YOU ARE HERE,
and I am scared,
scared that this time I just might not handle it.
but then again, that’s how it seems every single time.
you are making the wounds seem invisible,
you are putting a smile amidst these tears
and sometimes you give me these crazy crazy butterflies.
I think and I worry,
I worry for you, for me, and for God’s heart.
scriptures seem to come into my mind that I cannot understand.
In moments like these, I think of God and you and I smile. knowing that for now, I have both of you, for now I have love, that for now I can handle this hurt with love seeing me through.
I prayed for something new, I prayed for a head not just a man, I prayed for healing and love came, love came
you and God make a good team.
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